NANYANG GUZHENG;

Monday, April 02, 2007

No one can do everything.
But everyone can do something.

i think for now, many of us are feeling really down. seeing our SLs getting emotional, getting i dont know? maybe really disappointed with our performances. then we try to cheer them up. we try to write them letters. we try to put in our bests of the bests during practices so that we won't disappoint them or laoshi.

but then after putting in so much effort. they all seemed to go down to the drains. the way our SLs respond when we give them our letters or when we try to cheer them up in various ways, we get dejected. we feel extra.

then you lose your confidence. you lose your drive. you lose your source of motivation. you start to think that the ensemble, the team will be much better off without you. you feel like you should not even be chosen to participate in SYF. you feel incompetent, you feel like a failure. you're exasperated. you want to get things done, you want to solve the problem. but somehow you just can't seem to find the part which has gone wrong.

you see your groupmates putting in effort but somehow the result just wasn't fantastic. you want to be their source of motivation. you want to help them so that they can be into the music they are creating. you feel responsible for them. you tried your best and pushed them as far as you could go. but still. the results were disappointing. your efforts were in vain. that kind of feeling, is like a cargo truck has just crashed into your chest. you feel so dejected.

you see her disappointed. you see her shake her head. you sense her disappointment. you sense that she was feeling as though she was on the verge of giving up. like she had spent her hours on something that was not worth her time and energy. you try your best to make up for the rest in your team. but your actions only brought back negative results. you felt as though another cargo had crashed into your chest.

you try to pick yourself up. you are so exasperated. you want to help your group mates improve. you organise lunch and recess meetings, hoping that it will all change for the better. but still. the ones who turn up are always the same. the ones who don't remain the ones who don't, defeating the whole purpose. you felt as though you have tried your best. You feel like you work harder and harder for the team and yet you are getting less and less out of it.

listen. like what our seniors say.
this is not the time to feel incompetent.
this is not the time for you to lose your confidence.
this is not the time for you to give up.
this is not the time for you to fall and not pick yourself.

if you are spending time writing letters t your SLs to console them, why not spend time doing what you can do to make a difference? if you were to practice and you improve, your SL will have something less to think of. she'll say, at least my teammate know what she has to do. i dont have to worry about her.

for all those who are feeling incompetent right now, remember,
No one can do everything.
But everyone can do something.

and with that, we'll reach our goal! =D

add oil nygz! not to fry vege but to let us run faster!

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